I am aware of an internal pressure to be doing something; it is a melody I hear often in this world of information, production and massive action. As a child, adults would often ask me “what do you want to be when you grow up?” I smile living into this memory and recall a feeling of excitement and anticipation. As time marched on and I became an adult this question morphed; friends, family and strangers would ask me “what do you do?” Even as a student the questions were “how did you do on that paper or test?” I have been conditioned to do—do— and do some more. Today the most reoccurring questions asked me are, “do I paint every day?” and “how do I market my work?”
I have been studying marketing for the past several years to fulfill my doer expectations. This has taken me into the world of Branding, Internet Marketing, Social Media and the Blog. I have been taught that I need to be blogging 2-3 x’s/week saying something of utmost importance to appeal to the masses and to build my presence and market my art.
After several years I am announcing some good news — I will not be blogging 2 – 3 x/week, nor will my blogs feed the information, production and mass market mania. This is not my style; there is enough information out there in cyber space on just about every topic imaginable from experts and self-proclaimed gurus. My interest is living an inspired life. This is the return to the “what I want to BE” that I was asked long ago, this is my undoing.… My style is sharing my experience with inspiration. I know the most direct way for me to dance in inspirations aura is to be in gratitude right now!
I shift my state of consciousness, actively viewing through the lens of appreciation and gratitude. This is a feeling I embody—my body relaxes, a soft smile spreads through my demeanor and I feel a sparkle emanate from my eyes. I shift my attention and I become aware of my outer environment. I see a blue bird hopping along my deck railing, his mate lands on the iron armrest of the chair and a soft chirp fills the air. I step barefoot onto the deck and feel the penetrating heat of the redwood warmed by the noon sun. A robin red breast lands on the winters grass and a gently breeze strums the outdoor wind harps* creating a cascade of melodies, wild and free that is born with the wind. The blue birds chase each other in flight, trees sway, snow hugs the mountaintops in the distance. I am filled with awe, remembering this is the only moment that counts. My heart swells with radiant warmth as I recognize Loves movement through my being, a natural expression of gratitude’s embrace.
I am reminded I am not the Doer. I am also reminded when I appreciate and acknowledge my immediate world, I become a conscious participant, co-creating this moment, exciting my passion to explore my inner universe where Love moves deeply beyond the ocean’s boarders into uncharted territories filled with anticipation and excitement. I continue to practice living from this state of being, allowing the conditioned doer to be transformed into serving inspirations call, creating an atmosphere that is expansive, fun and filled with Love Divine.
I invite you to stop often in your day and allow yourself to appreciate your immediate surroundings whether it is the objective world around you or the subjective world within you. Experience inspiration’s vitalizing power, the most potent energizer I know, 100,000 times more potent then caffeine and it runs infinitely longer then the energizer bunny.
*View Harmony Wind Harps including garden bells and sound sculptures.